Author: ashbash385

Time to sing a new song

The move has officially been made! After 2 months of touring churches, presenting the vision and spending time with loved ones. One chapter closed whilst another began to unfold. I stepped onto that plane, once again into a sea of unknown adventures. Much prayer and discernment had gone into the past few years and now it was finally time to do the thing. Towards the end of my time in the UK I think the realization dawned on me. I have absolutely no idea what is ahead of me . This is both an incredibly scary but exhilarating place to be in. There were definitely moments when fear and anxiety tried to over take me , i found this occured in moments of emotional tiredness. I had given a lot of myself whilst speaking on my church visits and I know I did not always take the time to fill myself back up again . Moving forward, this needs to be a high priority. Landing in Bangkok on 13th September, it was all systems go. …

Traipsing through transition

Transition –“  Mid 16th century from French, or from Latin transitio(n-), from transire ‘go across’.” Oxford English Dictionary It’s fair to say I have entered a period of transition . I have found myself waiting for an exact moment where I feel I have entered this period, but truth be told I’m already in the depths of it. Not a day goes by where a peer doesn’t ask me how I’m feeling about the change or my current state of emotions. I’m never quite sure what the right answer is. It’s almost like I have tried to instil a particular emotion upon myself. I try to imagine the last day of my work here in Bangkok and I’m waiting for the tidal wave of tears to come but if I’m honest none appear. There are days where the reality of the situation doesn’t sink In. There are other days when my soul is so on fire for the next season that I can’t wait for what’s to come. Today is a day where I find …

Walking in my strength

 A month has roughly 30 days give or take. Within that short time span who would know that so much could happen? I feel like that is my life these days, no two days are the same and I’m ok with that. I think things are in a constant state of change and it’s never ok for us to stay in one place. I’m not talking about the life changing moments (although these are great also) but it’s the tiny details of growth that move us toward the person we were created to be. Sometimes these involve moments of great pain through perhaps lessons learnt or saying goodbye to someone or something, it could be a rejection from a person that only actually made us stronger. The moments of growth could also be joyful opportunities. No matter what the circumstance, every part of our journey should be embraced. I have been back in Bangkok over a week now and an aray of different emotions have been felt. Firstly there was that small detail of jetlag …

Reflections from a Cynic..

“Who can find a virtuous and capable wife? She is more precious than rubies. Her husband can trust her, and she will greatly enrich his life. She brings him good not harm all the days of her life” Proverbs 31:10-12 This verse cropped up on numerous occasions the day of Kevin and Lily’s wedding, confirming truth and an understanding among the people that were to witness this beautiful event. It’s fair to say that this wedding has stuck in both my heart and mind since the day it took place. There has been a spring in my step and lightness in my eyes as I explain to people the events that took place. One could almost be mistaken to believe it was in fact my wedding day. Ofcourse, it was not to be but watching your soul sister walk down the aisle with the person that she had spent years praying for, well that’s a pretty momentous occasion. I felt a stirring to write about this wedding. After nearly two years of working alongside people …

Defining Beauty

I couldn’t begin to tell you where the time has gone. It feels like ages since I last wrote a blog. I can feel within me a slight emptiness as I have not been able to exercise my love of writing for some time . Seasons change, and I do believe there is a season for everything as the book of Ecclesiastes tells us. I am the first to admit that I have not made writing my priority recently, what with work in the ministry, a stream of CrossFit competitions and running my women’s bible study. I did indeed lose a little balance and things didn’t quite fit into a neat and tidy routined box, but you know, that’s ok. I am pleased with the things I have achieved and the lessons I have learnt about myself and God through every one of these activities. One thing I do yearn for when I head back to the UK for my home assignment, is stolen moments in coffee shops writing the hours away.  Complete with a …