The move has officially been made! After 2 months of touring churches, presenting the vision and spending time with loved ones. One chapter closed whilst another began to unfold. I stepped onto that plane, once again into a sea of unknown adventures. Much prayer and discernment had gone into the past few years and now it was finally time to do the thing.
Towards the end of my time in the UK I think the realization dawned on me. I have absolutely no idea what is ahead of me . This is both an incredibly scary but exhilarating place to be in. There were definitely moments when fear and anxiety tried to over take me , i found this occured in moments of emotional tiredness. I had given a lot of myself whilst speaking on my church visits and I know I did not always take the time to fill myself back up again . Moving forward, this needs to be a high priority.
Landing in Bangkok on 13th September, it was all systems go. After getting over jet lag, I had a fundrasier to plan. Baring in mind that event planning is not an area that I am most experienced in. I was nervous to say the least! I am so blessed to have a community in Bangkok to come around me and love me when i go through these moments of self doubt . I needed those friends during this time. It’s so easy to get in your own head and spiral down the mental rabbit hole pondering on all the things that could go wrong.I beleive that if we stay in this place and dwell on the obstacles, it is the most detrimental to acheiving the goals we have been called to smash. Fear will come and yes it’s important to cover the potental pitfalls but we need to allow ourselves to feel this and step out regardless. When Peter stepped out of boat, the second he took his eyes off Jesus he began to sink. I know we can all identify with this.
The fundraiser wound up to be a beautiful event with some precious women that came together to hear the vision of Salt and Light Coaliton and enjoy a day of wellness. I am thankful for those small beginnings that step by step create the vision that God is calling us to.
The day after my fundraiser it was time to make the final move ( no rest for the wicked ey) Chiang Mai was about to become my home, it was honestly difficult for me to fathom . I never in a million years would have imagined that i would be planted here.
Emotionally, it’s been quite the ride. I have now been here for nearly 3 weeks and my head has been up one moment, down the next.
My prayer was the same prayer I had cried out when moving to Bangkok, “God please bless me with community.” 3 years ago he did this ten fold and once again he continues to astound me with his goodness. The welcome i received was nothing short of special. The people at my new Crossfit gym blew me away with their kindness, as did the people under my new foundation. I have the kind of personality where I will seek until i have found. In Bangkok I rushed to find community pretty fast, it was of great importance to me due to my extrovert tendancies. This time, it came to me. An aray of people have come along side me and poured into me with love and such beautiful kindess. I am forever thankful for those who are already bringing a piece of home to me.
Whilst in Bangkok, my soul yearned for the simplicity of nature. I so desired to walk along greenery and be amongst God’s creation. Now, the second I step out of my door, my eyes are lifted towards the mountain. It’s greatness stands before me and lights up my heart. Back in the UK I took nature for granted, here in this new city I cannot hep but smile at every inch of green i stumble upon. May I never tire of it,
Ofcourse in amongst staring at my surroundings, there is work to be done, over the past two weeks i have found this be done in the form of the Empower Global Leadership Academy. Empower international is the foundation that I planting Salt and Light Coalition under and they are quite simply wonderful. Already, I am seeing how precious the culture is that they have created. I feel a freedom to be my most authentic self. To be open and vulnerable and express my hopes and desires for this ministry. I admire their desire for excellence when working in ministry and allowing Jesus to take the lead in everything they do. The course has already set a fire in my heart and reconfirmed the reason as to why I am here, believe me the doubts still crop up. The enormity of the task takes my breath away at times so being around people who have been there and done that many times over is affirming.
Alongside learning all things leadership, I have spent some time in the gym community, coaching and getting back to the basics as i have been away from the field for a while. My gosh, I forgot the rush coaching gave. The joy it gives me to spend time with people and truly get to know them, both Thai and international, my spirit leaps at the thought of going into that arena, my heart is to get to a place of being able to coach in Thai so that I have more of an understanding moving forward in my work. Cross fit Chiang Mai, sits amongst some of the most beautiful nature, they have a big focus on sustainability and that’s clear to see by the environment they have created. The classrooms in the back of the location are built from old shipping containers and it’s fair to say it looks pretty awesome! .
All in all, I look forward to the future with great anticipation. If there is one thing I am certain of is that God is for me on this. There will be a ton ups and downs. The wins will come but the frustrations will be near. Today as I spent time with God , I was overcome by the scriptures that he brought me to. I came across the story of the prodigal son and it was as if I was reading it for the first time. This gave me time to go back and reflect upon my life and how far the God I serve has brought me. I will never take this for granted. My life has been redeemed , in all of the pain and trauma, God never stopped pursuing me and now it’s my turn to share that love with those I am called to reach. What an honour and a blessing. This brings me to my final scripture of this morning written by King David.
“You turned my wailing into dancing; you removed my sackcloth and clothed me with joy, that my heart may sing to you and not be silent. O LORD my God, I will give you thanks forever. Psalm 30 :12
This just about it sums they way i feel. His goodness continues to make me praise him, to give him the glory and to spring me into action.
Thankyou for your continued words of affirmation as i walk out this season of transition and thankyou for your prayers!