“When the Son set’s you free, you will be free indeed” I had this verse spoken over me when I was in my late teens and yet I had grappled with it for many years. Christ was in my heart but I did not possess this sense of freedom that the bible claimed. I felt trapped. It all comes back to that verse that Paul gives us in Romans “ I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. 16 And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. 17 As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. 18 For I know that good itself does not dwell in me, that is, in my sinful nature.” A classic tongue twister at it’s best. I had all this bad stuff in my heart. Sure, I wanted to do good but the acts just wouldn’t come. I thrived off the stuff that destroyed me! Sure enough I was trapped. The road to where I am now has been paved with so many twists and turns. It’s been full of laughter, full of pain, full of anger, full of joy but most of all it’s full of redemption. I was a caterpillar wrapped tightly in it’s cocoon, not knowing how to be set free but now, here in Thailand, my Lord and Saviour as gently snipped away and now my wings have been set free to fly. That’s the purpose of a butterfly isn’t it, nothing can hold it back, it looks at the world with eager eyes and it explores, taking in every beautiful surrounding!
I attended a conference this week ran by TBMF (Thailand Baptist Missionary fellowship)I came away from this feeling overwhelmed with blessings, to be able to spend time with people who have been on the mission field for 40 years! It was incredibly inslightful to hear their journey and to have their stories wash over me. It was here that I was able to share a small portion of my testimony and a little of my calling to Thailand. I delivered my speech and I felt a sudden peace in my heart. I am accepted. These people love me. God loves me, nothing I have done can ever change that. For the first time in my life that realisation fully dawned on me. I am part of God’s kingdom, part of his family,and I am set free indeed. What a beautiful revelation to have. I am honoured to be a part of the TBMF family and so thankful for what these wonderful people are doing for Jesus!
s week marks my last week of language school!!! “loudly celebrates” What a journey it’s been. There’s been tears of frustration on a somewhat weekly basis. There has been many a faux pas and I am certain this is only the beginning! Come the 28th August I will officially be starting my full-time role with Nightlight. This is incredibly exciting if not slightly nerve wracking. I have been in meetings to discuss the vision for my role and I a cannot wait to get stuck in. Initially I am based in City Light coffee shop working alongside the most beautiful women. Nightlight has created this coffee shop in order to provide a safe and empowering source of employment for women who have come out of prostitution. There has been a real need for English classes on both the Thai side and for our international women on the streets so I am excited to put a vision in place for this to happen.
As I enter into this next season of life, I do so with an eager anticipation to be a vessel for God’s love to pour out through me. This ministry has captured my heart and I know that God has me in this for the foreseeable future. Each time I walk the red light district a little piece of my heart is left behind for all to take. I continue to see courage and bravery in a world of darkness and desperation. I see prince
sses fighting to hold on to a dream of victory. We will continue to fight this battle until all are free.
I ask that you might pray for our ministry, although I am unable to reveal the inss and outs of what has been going on. Nightlight is dealing with some big cases at the moment . Please pray for wisdom, protection and victory in this. Christ will win this battle.
Please pray for two women who are on my heart today *Sophia and *Lauren, we have been visiting them on a weekly basis in a brothel and building a really strong relationship with them. I look forward all week to being able to visit them. It’s beautiful to just spend time with them and be. Please pray for breakthrough in their hearts, that they would know they have worth and this is not all there is for them, that they would know that god has a purpose so mighty for them and he is able to restore everything that was taken from them.
Thankyou for your partnering with me in this ministry, if you have any questions for me on a more personal basis then please do email me at agibb@bmsworldmission,org
*Names changed to protect identity