A one-way ticket to the unknown
“So, how are you feeling?” This question, the question I must have heard more times than I can count. At this point I’m supposed to give a succinct answer and be on my merry way. How do I feel for this next season in my life? It’s mix of emotions that I am really struggling to put into words. Sometimes I feel excited, other times I question if God has got this horribly wrong. Is this really my calling? Believe it or not, God doesn’t get it wrong. On the days when I’m struggling and I questions if I can go through this upheaval, my mind thinks back to the women I am going to be with. The need is too great and I simply cannot turn my back on that. Every goodbye, every heart break will be worth it to see hope brought to each woman. There is no other option.
Time is fast approaching. It is now a matter of weeks. I cannot tell you where the time has gone. Since coming back to Birmingham for the second half of term, it has most definitely flown by. It felt like only yesterday I was walking through the doors of IMC, wide eyed, feeling that Thailand was far in the distance.
Tearing myself away from Birmingham is not going to be an easy task. I have made such a life for myself. God has put some amazing people in my path and for that I am forever grateful. I couldn’t have done this journey without them. Having such an incredible gym to continue my training has been wonderful. The coaches have really invested their time and energy into me and I am going to be devastated to leave, they really have been incredible. The gym is not only a place to train but it is a place for me to go and take my stresses and let them out on a barbell. I can process things here without being in such an intense environment. Having coaches and other members allowing me to have this has just been brilliant.
I cannot go without mentioning the church that has also put me in good stead. Gas Street has truly been a place where I can take my cares to God and just enjoy the fellowship. I have joined a great home group and made the most wonderful friend Elaine. I really do believe that God has put friends like her In my life for such a season as this. We became friends very quickly and her hospitality and friendship has meant the world to me. She will be missed for sure!
Looking back on my time at IMC, it’s been one of immense value. I’m not sure I would change a thing. The challenges have been tough but the things I have learnt will stay with me for a life time. The Mission Trainers have given me space to be me but have been the absolute key in my development. Now all that is left to do is to say those goodbyes. Who sets the protocol for this? How many people do you give the emotion to? Do you give everyone your heart or save it for those closest to you? I never really did learn how to get my goodbye’s down to tee. The best thing I can do now is take one day at a time and enjoy every hour God gives me with the special people in my life.
See you on the other side!